conversation topics

topic 1: big people decisions
putting size to the side, i don't like making big people decisions. i'm so not decisive. i find that i still have to run my decision making process through my dad. he hasn't really made decisions for me for several years now, but his affirmation of a decision or his encouragement to think a different way are still huge factors in the decisions i make. bizarre.

for example, i need a new guitar. there's option 1 and there's option 2. both are equally good decisions, but i can't decide which one. so i had to email my dad about both of the options to get his feedback. he liked option 2 which has caused me to consider option 3. go figure. makes sense to me.

it's like i don't have the self-confidence to make my own decisions.

ok... next topic... snow, clouds, music that makes me feel at home, and a big jar of hot coffee on a cold morning.

i found this radio station on itunes that i'm listening to. all my itunes music is on my external hard drive that was soaked (my ears are tired of the ipod and headphones). i'm too afraid to turn it on. i'm waiting to buy a new external hard drive, but in order to buy replacement things i have to submit proof of replacement value. i was going to get it all from the electronic store website that's all in polish which was taking forever when i finally realized that the site doesn't actually like the prices on the stupid items! grr... so i'm thinking of borrowing a camera to take to the store and take pics of the prices and items. we'll see.

topic 3
table center pieces... coffee mixed with creamer and sugar... etc... that's all i gots.

so funny story

Thursday my apartment flooded. Ok actually flooded is not exact enough description. It was more like... imagine a rainy day and you have your umbrella. It's not a down pour, but it's a steady rain with a few puddles in the streets. Yes, you there in the rain with me?

That was my apartment Thursday evening when i got back from language school.

Apparently a water pipe burst in the upstairs apt and the peeps were out of town. During the 5hrs I was gone Thursday, it started leaking into my apt. There was enough water leaking into my apt that it leaked through my CONCRETE floor down to the next apt. Those people called the owners of my apt because they thought it was me. My landlord came immediately.

This all happened while I was gone. When I got home at 7:30p, my door was cracked open and there were lights on in my apt. I pushed the door open and saw my landlord in my entry way with soaked pants, bending over to ring out a towel into a bucket. However, it was still raining. By Friday morning there were still a couple of drips here and there. This was the whole apartment--not just a little corner of a room.

So right now I'm sitting in megan's room among my dry stuff. My electronics are on a table drying out. My computer... it was in my backpack that I carried all afternoon all over krakow on thursday! My guitar... ha ha ha... well I'll be guitar shopping. Thankfully the wonderful peeps who employed me gave me insurance. So my guitar will be replaced. I picked it up off the floor and looked in the hole and there was a puddle in it.

So today i'm going to go pack up some more stuff from my apt. Maybe do some laundry of the stuff that was wet. Monday i'll be apt shopping. get excited. ha.

all i can do it laugh. seriously... my life was never this dramatic. ha.

getting political

OK... i hate talking politics but i'm still fuming.

Last night I sat in a van and listened to a political talk about Obama as the new president...
At one point, Obama was being compared to Hitler. The next moment it was being said that abortion was wrong. However, the next subject discussed was how terrible it will be with Obama because he won't be as decisive when it comes to war. "It will make America weaker." And I'm thinking... so it's ok to shoot people with guns and bombs (not even talking about soldiers shooting soldiers... what about the civilians who get caught in the middle?) but it's not ok to kill babies. It's ok to kill in some situation but not in another. War brings more war--not peace. War teaches that we solve problems by shooting and forcing other people to do things our way.

Concerning the suposed moral decline that will now come due to Obama being pres...
In case anyone was wondering... America... The United States of America is NOT and will never be Israel. This country was never founded on Christian beliefs. It is NOT a Christian nation. It has been chugging away as a nonChristian nation for a couple of centuries now. And moral decline has been a state of being since we left the garden.

Regardless of who the president of the united states of america is, I'm not going to put my hope in him to save me or anyone else from this world.

ok ok ok... i'm done ranting now... I did really well in the van last night... i didn't say anything. I kept my mouth shut in an effort to spare the polish translator guy having to listen.

comments?!

whoa... light much?

my couch

my new bedspread

the some peeps i met at the airport... so special.

ha... what is this new fangled thing called a comment? i just now caught up on mine. sorry peeps... i'm bad about blogging these days. hey but i'll post some pics to make everyone happier. ok ok ok... so i'm still working on the whole photograph thing. bare with me... it's a work in progress...

logos... something practical makes me feel good

hey so i'm online now and mobile and creating.
which you think is more stellar?
these are 2 logo ideas i finished tonight.
i think i'm more partial to the 1st one.
however... it might be too edgy for some.
it's a kinda sucky cut of the fork... i apologize, but i was being lazy.

quiet

i've been quiet for the most part since i've been home. ya for some that probably seems to be impossible for me, and for others of you, you probably know me as a shy little vagabond. people ask how i'm doing (i.e. high/low lady) and i guess the best answer is that i'm inbetween--not really here and not really there.

some inbetween truths i've learned:
1. life always goes on.
2. people somehow make it without me there.
3. i'm always surprised that people don't need me to carry on with their lives.
4. cooking for myself sucks.
5. considering myself to be homeless is a lot more comforting than thinking of leaving home.
6. married people get to take their homes with them.
7. if i held all of my friends to the "lets keep in touch" rule, i wouldn't have any left.
8. moving costs are always overwhelming.
9. a different place has a different taste and my staple food changes with the seasons.
10. i'd rather sit in my room than meet new people.

goodbyes and little cries

so it's that time again. it's funny to me that i was always the worst transitioner growing up. i hated change. now, change seems to be the rhythm of my life. letting go of people, places, things and dreams in pursuit of following...

...that wind.

that wind. the one that blows where it chooses. no one knows where it comes from or where it goes. yet, the world keeps moving. we're all changing. and that wind... it keeps us dependin on every breathe, every word, every hope that it's left.