Tent Maker

So I find myself in Poland again. It seems like I never really left. But really I think on the calendar there were 4 months spent in the states. Those 4 months feel kinda like a blur. Good and healing but intense and exhausting.

I came back to Poland to visit a friend. 3 days before my plane was supposed to return to Tennessee I realized that I didn't have a job or place to live when I got back to the states. Therefore, I reasoned, why not stay in Poland. Against wise counsel that I should go back to the states and make a plan for life in Poland and then return, I stayed.

Poland's always been in my heart. People ask me why Poland. I figure why not. For some reason since the first time I came here my heart has stayed here piece by piece. Finally I decided to just stay.

I found a place to stay until may. Now I'm looking for work. I've always felt that I was supposed to do the tent making thing. Now I finally get to do it but I'm realizing that I suck at the whole making part. I know how to sleep in a tent but to make it sucks. I was talking to a friend yesterday about her various trips with the company. I started to get jealous. She was talking about people giving her things and I thought... Dang I wish someone would just give me a job. I don't want money. I just want to continue eating and I want to be working. Geeez... I'm so selfish sometimes. For the past month people have given me a place to sleep. People have given me their friendship and kindness. They've fed me and helped me find my way around. I have been given much. And for much I am thankful.

So today I went to the open market and bought an old crappy bike. I was proud of myself for gettin it 20zl cheaper than the guy wanted to sell it for. Haha. My plan is to try to rebuild it and then sell it. We'll see how this business goes. Financial business partners welcome... Cough... Snort... Yaaa. Actually.

Having a bike made me smile today. I haven't smiled much in the last week. The life of a lonely traveler gets old I've found.

However I do have community here that I've never had in the states. They graciously let me help lead worship and prayer on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays. I love it and they have welcomed me and have been teaching me new songs in polish. And there's a group of American missionaries that have invited me to join them in ministry. I've started leading worship with them and helping the new baby m's find their way around the grocery store.

So that's what I'm doing. I hope all are well. Please pray for me that I'll find ways to make money. Pray that I'll have wisdom and courage and strength to work on poor relationships with people. Pray that I'll find someone to lease my car that's in Nashville.

Peace


-posted from my mo fo phone.